Shining stars and Boulevards ©

Chapter one.


I walked down the deserted rode just like every other night.
Except tonight was different,the air was cold and crisp,and the streetlights shone on the wet pavement.I felt chills wash over me and zipped up my jacket.The stars shone brightly two stars trying to out twinkle each other.I laughed,thinking how us people are just like those stars.
Always trying to outdo each other.I'd been lonely for a long time,always wishing to have someone to join me on my walks.But after a certain amount of time I got over it.
This was the one time I could really be alone,and think.I made my way to the turn which would lead me down to the old ballpark that I adored.The wind picked up rustling some leaves,but it felt somewhat nice on that summer night.I examined the ballpark,and remembered some fun times I had there,just walking and laughing with friends.Things were so different now.I sat down on the bleachers and looked back up to the stars.In all their beauty,I sat breathless.One went shooting across the sky,"I might as well go ahead and make a wish,even though it's useless" I muttered to myself."I wish,that someway,somehow,someone is out there thinking of me,my one true love and wishing to find me.I would give anything for him."My thoughts were interrupted when a car drove by,making me forget what I was doing for a good few seconds.I picked myself up off of the bleachers,and walked home admiring the romance of this moment,and how lovely it would be if I had someone to share it with.

Dancing my heart away © chapter 2

I stop and breathe,try to calm my nerves before walking into the building where we practice ballroom dancing. I think about how amazing he is and walk in the door,he greets me with a smile and says I'm so happy to see you. I smile thinking,I can almost bet I'm more excited about seeing him then he is about me. He says,oh by the way,I may not be here next week to teach so could you give me your number so I can call and tell you what's up? So I said of course as I wrote it down. Well then everyone headed up to the dance floor,as he showed us the new dance we would be learning, I smiled as he danced with an invisible girl wishing it was me. He finally said,ok we're all gonna try this together,ladies grab a man. Of course someone went to him before I could and I went down the line of short,tall,skinny,big,older,and younger guys.. At last I made my way to him,he smiles saying ah I finally get to dance with you again. I blush as we start dancing,I keep looking at my feet and tripping over myself like a total kultz. He says,look up at me,I look up at him and look into his eyes... it was one of those moments where time stops,and we both messed up. He quickly says sorry everyone,just keep going. And him and me restarted and I was to nervous to look into his eyes again. He smiled and said,I'm sorry I have no idea what came over me.The song ended and me and him were still dancing,everyone looked at him wondering what they were to do next. Then someone said,earth to Jonathan!he looked over and said oops,lets try the cha-cha next and switch partners everyone. He let go of me and said thank you,that was wonderful. As I walked away in a daydream I felt so great,then I realized I was dancing with a tall guy again and lost my moment. Practice ended,and I had to leave right then,as I was running out the door Jonathan waved and said I'll call you. I waved back and walked out the door,although it didn't feel like I was walking,it seemed more like I was floating on a cloud.

A Servants Heart © Crosslink.

What I learned in Columbus at a church called "Crosslink community church"
Just some notes I wrote,not too much but I figure why not put it up?
So yeah,and about the waterpark,
Fort Rapids was amazing.As I had expected.
We had an amazing time and saw this dude who was amazing at some dance game kinda like DDR but it was called in the groove 2 or something like that.
The arcade was great,I spent a total of $16 in it.
I was saving that money for a webcam but oh well hahaha.
So yeah,here's some of my notes from crosslink.(=


God's plan of redemption is mysterious,intriguing and designed just for you!

Salvation Uncovered
-By God's mercy we are saved.
-Because of the resurrection of Christ,we can bury our old life and be born again.
-We can have confidence in life because we know that in death we will trade what is temporal for what it eternal.


Our Salvation Today
-There is coming a time when the struggles of life are transformed into joy.
-Trials/struggles help us work out our impurities and dirty spots so that we can live in purity.
-The goal is not to please others but to please God alone.


Stepping into Faith
-The understanding of God's love for you leads you to love God.
-Salvation comes as a result of putting your trust in God.
-Trusting God leads to inexpressible joy.


1 Peter
¹Peter, an apostle of Jesus Christ,
To God's elect, strangers in the world, scattered throughout Pontus, Galatia, Cappadocia, Asia and Bithynia, ²who have been chosen according to the foreknowledge of God the Father, through the sanctifying work of the Spirit, for obedience to Jesus Christ and sprinkling by his blood:
Grace and peace be yours in abundance. ³Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! In his great mercy he has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, ⁴and into an inheritance that can never perish, spoil or fade—kept in heaven for you, ⁵who through faith are shielded by God's power until the coming of the salvation that is ready to be revealed in the last time. ⁶In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. ⁷These have come so that your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed. ⁸Though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy, ⁹for you are receiving the goal of your faith, the salvation of your souls.

Dancing my heart away©

A small series I'm working on.Pretty much a short story thing,but it has chapters and stuff.
Please comment if you like?



Chapter one.




He says "switch partners everyone" I look around trying to figure out who I dance with next,he looks over at me and almost motions me over,but He says "switch partners everyone" I look around trying to figure out who I dance with next,he looks over at me and almost motions me over,but someone else goes to him. I go over to this older guy trying to smile,and start practicing the new ballroom dance we had been learning.The teacher whom happens to be very good looking,says ok everyone we're gonna do it again,1 2 3.The older guy keeps stepping on my feet,I try not to let it bother me although it did hurt cause I had blisters on my feet from something the night before.He finally tells us to switch partners again,I look over at him,and he says you're dancing with me this time.I walked over to him smiling,trying not to let him see that I was blushing..we start dancing,and I mess up.I say I'm sorry,he says no it was my fault and smiles,we go through the routine a few more times.He says switch again,but says you're gonna stay with me again.I smile thinking to myself,I wish I could dance with him forever.And the last switch before practice was over,I got with a super tall guy who can barely dance with me because I was way short compared to him.Finally it ends,I sit down waiting for my ride,he comes over to me,grabs my hand,my heart jumps,he says you can dance with me a few more times.I smile..we go out to the dance floor,and start dancing,he says try not to look at your feet so I look up at him,and realize,he has beautiful hazel eyes.My heart skipped a beat,I wonder if he has any idea.The song ends,he says,you did really great,I hope to see ya next week and gives me a gorgeous smile before walking away.I sit back down with a dumbfounded smile on my face,I could swear I saw my heart on the middle of the dance floor..I realized I danced my heart away with him.He made me leave my heart there on the dance floor,and I'm hoping to return next week,and that he'll be up on the dance floor with my heart,ready to dance the night away..again.

A Servants Heart ©

Why is it,that we don't enjoy the good times in our life because we know something bad is gonna happen soon?For every good moment,there are a thousand unhappy moments?Some people think that and I can't understand why.But then at times I catch myself thinking that same thing.Why can't I find any comfort?Well I've got it figured out.We gotta look at the bright side,and praise God in every situation whether good or bad.And he will get us through it.We need to start enjoying the good,and bad moments.


I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.Philippians 4:12-13



So,if we follow God,why do bad things happen to us anyways?Wasn't it supposed to get easier?Nope.That was never promised.But God can help make things easier if you pray and ask for it.It's not all gonna be easier though,just because you believe in him.Most cases it gets harder but in the end it is worth it.Just hang in there kiddo.


We know that all things work together for the good of those who love God,those who have been called according to his plan.Romans 8:28


And why do relationships that we think are perfect keep falling apart?All these breakups and divorces with people who thought they were madly in love.Well,shall we see?

¹If I speak in the tongues^a]">[a] of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. ²If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. ³If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames,^b]">[b] but have not love, I gain nothing.

⁴Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. ⁵It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. ⁶Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. ⁷It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

⁸Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. ⁹For we know in part and we prophesy in part, ¹⁰but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. ¹¹When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. ¹²Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

¹³And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.



1.Love is patient.-
Some people aren't patient with their signifacint other,problem one.We should learn to be patient and understanding with each other.
2.Love is kind.-
Pretty obvious ey?
3.It does not envy.-
Indeed,the green envy eyes,not too good in a relationship.What,you say,would you envy in your signifacint other?Maybe they have a friend,whom you are jealous of..say,one that you think could steal them from you?
4.It does not boast,it is not proud.-
Please don't brag(:
5.It is not rude.-
Another obvious,but still very important.
6.It is not self seeking.-
This one is extremely important,you can't love yourself so much that you have to always come first,before the one you say you love.
7.It is not easily angered.-
Aha!!We need to learn,to not let the sun go down on our anger.Be patient with each other and talk about it.Sure we all make each other angry some times but we need to learn to not get so steamed up over certain things.
8.It keeps no record of wrongs.-
Ah,this one is extremely important.Say the one you love,makes a major mistake and really regrets it.And every time you fight or get in an argument,you pull that one up and remind them of that mistake and make them feel like crap.That's a major no-no.
9.Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.-
I don't understand this one too much.I'll get back at you,I mean I know it's obvious too.
10.It always protects.-
It does.
11.Always trusts.-
This is one most couples have trouble with.If you don't trust each other,you can't have a successful relationship.
12.Always hopes.-
Always hopes,for the rainbow after the rain,that you can make it through and come out standing strong together.
13.Always perseveres.-
Always.
Love never fails.-
That is the one thing love doesn't do,so if you say you love each other,but keep failing each other,it's not love.
Beautifully said,straight from the bible and my trying,limited knowledge.
(:


And do not be conformed to this world,but be transformed by the renewing of your mind,so that you may prove what the will of God is,that which is good and acceptable and perfect.Romans 12:2


So here we go,do not be like the world.What you see going on out there,sex,drugs,drinking,and so on and so forth.Don't be like the others.But be transformed,be changed...By a change of mind,change of thoughts.Be different and see how things turn around.


1 Corinthians 6:19-20 - Do you not know that your body is a temple of the holy spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own. You were bought at a price. Therefore, honor God with your body.

-Purity.


Psalm 139:13-14 - For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
16 - your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.


But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.Isaiah 40:31

I love this verse.^^^^



There are tears from the saints
For the lost and unsaved
We're crying for them come back home
All your children stretch out their hands
and pick up the crippled man
Father we will lead them home
Sinners reach out your hands
Children in Christ you stand.

We who were called to be your people,
Struggling sinners and thieves
were lifted from the ashes
and out came the song of the redeemed.

Your mercy brings me to my knees.
Oh, the beauty of your majesty.
On the cross you showed your love for me.

In your presence God, i'm completely satisfied.
For you I sing, I dance. I rejoice in this divine romance.
Lift my heart and my hands to show my love, to show my love.

What what?Who's my love?

Ahhh February the offical love month.
And another I'll be spending without someone.


I step back and look at what I've just said,
I've never really spent any Valentines alone.
I mean,I've never had a boyfriend for any of them strangely,
But I've never been alone for any of them.
Wish for me to explain?


I have the most fabulous friends in the world.
I guess I never really noticed,I sometimes take them forgranted.
Is that weird?
Nope,we all do it all the time,like we don't totally not realize how great they are..
But we just don't give them all the love they deserve.
And realize all the times they've been there.


I want you all to know,how much I truely love you.
I know I don't always let you know,
but I care for yall more then anything in the world and I would be nothing without you.♥




If you need to talk,I'll listen.
If you need to cry,I'll hold you.
If you feel lost,I'll help guide you.
If you need to be angry,I'll let you.
If you're feeling afraid,I'll comfort you.
If you're feeling attacked,I'll be your defense.
If you need to lean a while,I'll give you a shoulder.
If you're feeling unsure,I'll be your confidence.
If you're feeling alone,I'll be the friend who won't leave you.
If you need to learn to trust again,I'll prove to you that you can.


A friend is someone,
who can see the truth and pain in you,
even when you're fooling everyone else.


When we first talked to each other,I knew we would always be friends.
Our friendship has kept on growing and I will be here for you till the very end.
You listen when I have a problem,and help dry the tears from my face.
You take away my sorrow and help put happiness in it's place.
We can't forget the fun we've had,laughing till our faces turn blue,
Talking of things only we find funny.
People think we're insane,oh if only they knew.
I guess this is my way of saying thanks,
For catching me when I fall,
Thanks again for being the friends who were here with me through it all.



You're the friend I know I can act like a complete idiot with,
and no matter what,you will stand there laughing with me.
You're the friend that I can get completely mad at,
and then having you stand there with a funny face completely ignoring the fact that I'm mad at you,
and just burst out laughing.
You're the friend that I can trust with EVERYTHING,
there isn't a thing in the world I would doubt telling you about,
because I trust you with my whole heart.
You're the friend who has been through rough times with me,
and we still come out standing strong.
You're the friend I would run to if in trouble.
You're the friend who has always tried to help me out.
And well,you know what?You're a person that I consider my bestfriend.


You're crazily amazing,
Maybe you're born with it,maybe it's maybelline.


I just wanted to remind you,
That I love you a lot and thank God everyday for blessing me with a friend that is just simply amazing.
So when you think there is no one,who understands or cares,
remember that I love you,and try to smile.(:


A friend is someone,
who understands your past,
believes in your future,
and accepts you today,just the way you are.

The girls that you laugh with when you're happy.

Jump on at when you're hyper.

Hug when you're depressed.

Have long phone calls with.

Giggle with about that boy.
Shout sarcastic comments at.
Cry with when you're hurt.
Eat with every single lunch.
Just absolutely love too much,
Yeah those are the ones who make life worth living♥



So here's to my friends,
the ones who saw past all the people that spread lies about me,
the ones that got me through those days when I didn't even wanna smile,
the ones that told me I was too good for him.
But most importantly,
the ones who stayed true in a complicated world.

flowers will die the sun will set,

but you're a friend I won't forget,

Your name's precious it will never grow old its engraved in my heart in letter of GOLD.

A true friend,
Accepts you as you are
believes in you
calls you just to say hi
doesn't give up with you
admires all sides of your personality
forgives your mistakes
helps you
encourages you to try again
makes a difference in your life
says nice things about you
offers their support
understands you
tells the truth
never judges you
explains things when you don't understand
walks by your side
calms down your fears
shouts if necesarry,if you don't want to listen
raises your spirit.


If I could reach up,
and take a star for every time you made me smile..
I would have the entire night sky in the palm of my hand♥

Close friends that's what we'll forever be... Tomorrow, no matter where life may take me but one thing I'll feel happy about is , the kind of friend, I have found in you.

when I trip. she laughs.
when I run into walls, she pushes me into another. but when I cry, she always gives me a shoulder to cry on.
& she does that because that's what best friends do.



So,you I just wanna let you guys know,
I love you with my whole heart and have special things to tell each and every one of you ,
if you'd like to hear.
Basically about how much you mean to me.
I can't give you each your own separate one on here,
for it would be too long.
We were friends in the start,
and we'll be friends in the end,
I'll keep you close to my heart
Forever best friends.
You guys are my world,my heart,my lifeline,my love.
There for me when some crump breaks my heart,
and my home boys beat him up for me(:
While my girls give me a shoulder to cry on.
I know I'm not always there for you as I should be,
But I'm gonna try my best from now on.
It can only get better.
We all just need to spend some time together,
and remember all the good times.
So many memories,and only more to make.
Many more kodak moments.
So many laughs to share.
Hugs to give,and those smacks on the tush,where they're running 100 mph and smack you right in the butt while screaming heyy sexy momma!
And leaves a welt to remind you how much they love you:D
I love you guys!
Call me,message me,email me.
We all need to chat!!
-ChristinaConduit♥

Heartbreak.Over it♥

&& isn't it funny how the people who said,
I'll never hurt you,are the ones who hurt you the worst?




I'm going to smile like nothings wrong,
Talk like everything's perfect,
Act like it's all a dream,
And pretend it's not hurting me....



I think the worst part is,that I knew this would happen.♥



My plan is to forgive and forget:
Forgive myself for being stupid,
And forget you ever existed.




Don't let someone become a priority in your life,
when you are just an option in theirs....



I thought you were the dumb one,for breaking up with me..
but really I was the dumb one for even falling in love with you.




A careful lover is what I've become,
a careful lover who's heart is not easily won,
Heartache and heartbreak have done it to me,
I am forever a stranger to love;
But not to agony.♥





The girl who seemed--Broke
The girl who seemed so strong--Crumbled
The girl who always laughed it off--Cried
The girl who would never stop trying-Finally gave up♥




I gave him my all,
He watched me fall.
My heart broke in two,
All because of you.
But honey don't worry no,
It only broke me to watch you go.
I've learned from this dear,
I'm one step ahead of you,nowhere near.-Christina Marie Shumard.



I have no idea,
if it was real love.
I mean I was pretty sure at the time,
But now I just don't know.
Maybe it was,maybe I'm just a foolish girl,just a kid.
I'm pretty sure he was my first love.
First true heartbreak.
Got back on my feet again to finally let it go.
I don't believe it was a waste of time although that's what I'd love to say it was.
I actually enjoyed it very much when we were.
But I guess it's not meant to be,or maybe it was.
If it was,that stinks cause I'm not going that way again.
I'm the girl whose learned from this.
Most girls would go right back into it,
I did once,but now I'm done.
I give way too many second chances but not anymore.
That one was it.
I honestly don't know if I'll ever feel the way I did before ever again.
I'm pretty sure I will,cause I know God has someone out there for me.
I wanted to believe it was you.
But who knows.
It's over now,
I've found the right path.
I'm not going back,I'm moving ahead I'm here to declare,that the past is over.
Thanks dear,for showing me what it's like to care for someone this much.
I love that I can still be friends with him after all this.
I'm strong.
I'm a woman.
I'm a woman of faith.
And I'm simply amazing.




It is what it is,
which means it is done for the last time.
(=



-ChristinaConduit♥

Stars♥author unknown

lazy days
lonely nights
looking for a lonely star
who'd keep me company

looking at the widespread sky
being me a lonely soul
gazing at the moon so bright
making wishes `pon a star

a blow of breeze
to animate
the freezing scene

so the strings of white gold ribbons
seem to tease the lonely moon
because it is standing still
and they are free to move

"twinkle twinkle little star . . . "
I used to sing when I was young
now I've grown but still today
" . . . how I wonder what you are"

lying down upon the meadows
dream of flying up so high
reach the stars, sit on the moon
dancing ballet with the clouds