The answer is yes;

I am still alive.

I've been working everyday.

Not to mention church, hanging

out, bible study, band practice,

ect.

Works going great though.

Subway is pretty chill.

Too tired to do much of a legit

post..

Tomorrow work, hanging out

with a friend and picking up another

friend, then to bible study and my

friends going away party.

Saturday, work.. then working at

the superchick concert.

Woot. Church Sunday and I dunno

what else. So yeah.

-Ms. Conduit

Be prepared;

rant coming in 3... 2.... 1!

Today was good.

Went up to Canton.

Hung around.

Listened to the

new emery cd tons.

OH! I start work at

subway, Friday 8-2.

Pshyeah. =)

God is good to me.

Picked up an old, old

friend. Amazed that she

agreed to come to church.

It was great to see her again.

Church was good.

Convicting at times..

Guilt tried to come over

me, but then I remembered

God's grace is enough and I

don't have to feel guilt and

shame anymore.

Bottom line;

people aren't to be trusted

with your life. Leave that stuff

to God. If you feel in your heart

that something isn't right,

don't get talked into it because

people call you paranoid.

Capisce?

Awesome day.

Just time to change

a few things.

God, thanks for revealing that

stuff to me.

Tomorrow; laundry and cleaning.

Friday; Work 8-2 and maybe starbucks.

Saturday; Work 8-2 and church.

I'm going to go listen to emery and think.

And read my bible, a little behind on devotions.

Catch up time.

-Ms. Conduit

I love you all.

Today was awesome.

I could end it there,

but I'll bore you with

the details of my day :]

So, I woke up. Got ready.

Went up to Canton,

searched around until I

found Jonathan's(my old ballroom

dance instructor) dance studio.

There was an open house there

today, with free lessons. Hadn't

seen him in a good year or two.

It was amazing. He says I can

come sing and play at his studio

sometime. I invited him to church.

He's not a real churchy guy, so I

talked to him a bit about that.

He says when he's not teaching he's

gonna come out sometime. SCORE!

#Invite!

Dancing was amazing. I miss ballroom.

I felt so natural, and happy, and just..

invincible. The year I took ballroom

consistently was so life changing and

awesome. I might start again. After

that, went to chipotle with some awesome

friends. Had some deliciousness in my mouth,

because of course chipotle is awesome.

Oh, whilst walking back to the car

after dance(which we had to park like half a

mile away), some lady overhears us talking

about getting food. She goes "WHERE YALL

GET YO MONEY? I BET YALL GET IT HANDED

TO YOU. YOU PRETTY LITTLE WHITE CHICK

GET WHATEVER YOU WANT."

I told her God provides for me. She got angry.

She said she needs money to feed her cat.

I offered to buy her cat food, because obviously

she was on drugs. She then proceeded to throw

out every cussword in the book, and yell at a sarta

bus saying "I don't need no ride from you."

It was terrifying at the moment, but now I find it

humorous. It just saddens me that people are like

that, and that they let their lives be destroyed by

the enemy. I wish I knew her name so I could

pray for her. I have it so much better than most

because of Christ in me. ♥

Also, while we were walking I was complaining about

my hair. Petty, petty thing. But the wind was screwing

it up, and I felt very self conscious. A few moments

after I was complaining about myself, my hair, and all;

someone walked by and said "I like your outfit. And your

hair." Sent by God much? He proves Himself more and

more to me everyday. If my God is for me, NO one can be

against me. Nothing can stop me from the plans He's made

for me. Two people liked my eyeshadow. It made me feel

really good. I mean, I have hardly any confidence in the

way I look. Compliments really boost me up. They make me

cheerful. I guess He knew I needed it. After chipotle, and previous

events, we headed out to church. Talked to people a little bit before.

And then had some AWESOME church. We literally talked about

the Word. What it does for us, ect. It was really good. After wards,

we talked to more people. Devin still hasn't had time to check out

my musical, but that's fine. I mean, he's already working on a billion

other things. He can take his time with that. I gave some compliments

out, in return for the good feelings I got. Actually, I told Devin his shirt

was cool. He had to look down to remember what shirt he was wearing.

LAWL. People do that, all the time. Including me. So after all this at

church, we headed out to starbucks. I figured it would just be a quick stop.

Ran into someone from my old church and we had a really long, nice

chat. About church stuff of course, and God, and His awesomeness, and ways

to draw closer to Him. It's just really cool. God sets up all these divine appointments

for me. He's so good to me. Regardless of any bad things that have happened,

He's the joy this world can't steal from me. Take all that I have, take everything,

but you can't take my unspeakable joy, my everlasting love, my savior, my Jesus.

Nothing, absolutely nothing can separate me from His love.

And in that, I will always be confident.

Long day though,

Kinda tired but I'll probably

get some devotionals done

before bed since I'm not tired

enough to sleep.

Church in the morning,

and then watching movies,

later on, SKYPE NIGHT!

♥

I love you all.

-Ms. Conduit

Today's lazy. I played some video games.

Gonna do some bible stuff here soon, but

here's a quote post with some pictures from

my tumblr to entertain you all. ♥

1."Don't ever let the media tell you what your body is supposed to look like.

You're beautiful the way you are. Stay beautiful, keep it ugly." -MCR

2."Doing what you like is freedom. Liking what you do is happiness."

3."He is no fools who gives what he cannot keep, to gain what he cannot lose."

-Jim Elliot

4."Faith is being sure of what we hope for, and certain of what we do not see."

Hebrews 11:1

5."Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers

to turn on the light." -Albus Dumbledore

6."Dear whoever is reading this, guess what? You are loved. No, don't shake your

head and disagree. You are. You are lovely, and you are loved. End of story."

7."Whoever says he lives in God must live as Jesus lived." 1 John 2:6

8."Everyone thinks of changing the world,

but no one thinks of changing themself." -Leo Tolstoy

9."Lights will guide you home, and ignite your bones, and I will try to fix

you." -Coldplay

10."She was beautiful. But she was beautiful in the way a forest fire is beautiful;

something to be admired from a distance. Not up close."

Maybe I won't do a long post today.

I'm exhausted again. No plans tomorrow.

I'm going to get a lot done though.

Today, woke up. Got ready.

Went to Canton, to Hartville,

to goodwill, and then back to Canton.

Then had KFC. And then swapped

people, and went to the park with a

friend. Talked a bit, walked on the trail.

Went to chipotle, and then headed to

church. Talked to people a lot. A lotttt.

Had some awesome praise and worship.

Had some CHURCH! Heck yes. Got

prayed for, got coffee, and then talked

a lot more to more people. Finally

made it home. I'm so tired.

I've still got stuff to do before bed

too. But thankfully I still have some

coffee left. Nomnomnom. ♥

I love you all, really.

If you need to talk,

ask me. I'd love to listen.

-Ms. Conduit

Quick post about my day;

Woke up. Went to zumba but instead

put make up on. Went to COL to

work at spice of life. Had some lovely

chats with the senior citizens there.

Thought. Got chipotle. Sat at curves

for two hours. Hung out with a friend

for two hours. Came home. Had nutella

mug cake. Tumbled. Time for video games.

Church tomorrow.

♥

-Ms. Conduit

I'll do a better post tomorrow

or something. I love you all.

"Trust the Lord with all your heart, and do not rely on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths smooth." Proverbs 3:5-6

Typical verse, commonly used. But do we ever really think about what it truly means, instead of just saying "Oh that's a cute verse, lets send it to people who are struggling."? Trust. It's more than just believing that someone will keep your secrets. It's also believing that they will keep their word. When you go to sit down, you trust that the chair is going to support you, you don't even give it a second thought. When you trust God, you gotta trust that He's there. That's He's gonna keep His promises. That His grace is sufficient. That His word is true. You gotta trust that He's going to support you, if He shows you a way and you follow it, He WON'T let you fall through. Some times we only rely on what we see now, what we know. But God's got the bigger picture. What He tells us to do might not make sense now, but in the end if we follow Him, all the pieces will come together to create a beautiful picture. More beautiful then we could of imagined. If you acknowledge Him in everything you do, and make sure it lines up with HIS plan, He'll do the rest. He'll make it work out, even if it seems impossible. All things are possible with God.

-Ms. Conduit

"The Lord will be your confidence. He will

keep your foot from getting caught." Proverbs 3:26

Okay, okay,

I'm back for daily posts.

I think.

I'm going to do a quick rant

about my life/past few days,

and then I'll do quotes.

Or actually I might post

some of my daily bible devotions

that I write and stuff. (:

Friday I had G2; small group/bible study.

(Girls only.)

I opened up a little. Usually I hardly get

along with girls, and keep to myself around

them. But for some reason I felt alright

about talking a little. Not to mention our

G2 has bible study at muggswigz!

Coffee makes everything exponentially

more awesome for me. So anyways.

We did a re-cap on Wednesdays sermon,

talking of course, and did some prayer

requests. I said a few. Mainly for my

cyst, and internship. Awesomely enough,

since they prayed for me I haven't been

in as much pain as usual. Thanks God.

I ranted to them a bit, about what's been

going on in my life. This super awesome girl;

Christy, let me borrow toy story 3. Which

I watched for the first time yesterday.

I don't see why people said it was sad. It simply

caused anxiety at certain parts. But in the end

it all worked out. Anyway, lets see... Got tons of

facebook messages from some very awesome people

apologizing for others immaturity and such because

of a really ridiculous and unimportant situation.

But besides that fact, they all said they love me.

Realizing that people care, it's an awesome feeling.

Especially when there are others trying to tear

you down. Ain't happenin' yo. Saturday, I went to

the mall with some awesome folks who I love very

much. We goofed off, walked around a bit. Had

some very good conversation, about God and stuff.

Then to chipotle we went! Where I happened to see

an old friend, who works there. It was nice to talk to

him. It's weird to run into old friends, they're always

so different. Generally in good ways. Anywho, ate a

deliciouso burrito, while I proceeded to make a huge

mess. And then off to church we were! Early of course.

So more talking was in store. Had more wonderful

conversations about God, and how Louis has to get into

a G2 because they're awesome(or mine is anyway, I don't

know what the guys G2's are like), and how he also has to

get baptized. Church was good. Gave my musical to Devin

so he could read it over. And then I headed home exhausted.

But alas, insomnia kept me from getting much sleep. I awoke

early on Sunday to get ready for more church. Which was

really awesome. I did my daily devotions during the sermon,

(yeah, shame on me. At least it was God-related anyway.)

And before I knew it, church was over. Talked some stuff

over with a friend, my name was cleared from past things

that were said, and received an apology and sort of got an

old friend back. Hey God, thanks. Satan, you fail again.

Nothing can stop me now. ♥

So now, today is lazy. I actually cooked today without messing

it up. Suh-weet. Mainly, I'm just waiting for Wednesday for church.

Hopefully by then Devin checked out my musical and can let me

know if it's usable. As for personal problems, I really don't have any

right now. Sure, I don't know what all is coming, but I do know that

God's got a plan. And right now, being single makes things a lot easier.

Internship is confirmed, and I simply need somewhere to stay during

it. God will provide that, since He confirmed that internship is a yes.

Other then that, lots of writing, daily devotions, spending time with a

friend before he heads out to Colorado for a one year bible internship

(like the one I'll be doing, but his is a lot more expensive than mine,

and of course I'm staying here in Ohio), making new friends at G2,

and staying out of trouble as usual. As for right now, I think it's coffee

time. Bible post in a minute.

Love you all ♥

-Ms. Conduit

I thought you had me

You thought that you had me

But hey, Devil, go on

Get your junk out of here

I don't need you

I don't need you

Hey, Devil, go on

Get your junk out of here

I don't need you

So move on

-TobyMac

So, simply put satan thinks I'm a good target lately.

Which means I'm doing what God wants me to.

Whenever satan attacks it's because I'm where

I need to be and he wants to take me away from

that path. Well guess what satan, you lose.

I win. End of story.

Youth was awesome Wednesday.

Yesterday was pretty fun too.

I got my haircut, and dyed. I'll take

pictures later. Been hanging out

with my sister lately.. and her and

one of my friends were talking

about me. My sister loves me ♥

:)

Anywho, G2 bible study tonight

at muggswigz. Which means

I can have another mocha cookie

crunch because I'ma fatty omnom.

Church tomorrow.

Doctors next week to get my cyst looked

at. Feels like there's a hurricane inside

my stomach but I'm getting through it :)

I can do this.

My owl city musical might actually be

used. How freakin' awesome is that?

My dads gonna pay for the internship

that I'm gonna do at church. Double

awesome. I get to work at the church,

learn tons of theology, doctrine, go out

witnessing, ect. I want to be the woman

of God that I'm supposed to, and this

training will do just that.

Hopefully then I'll know what to do with

my life. Still not going to college. And I

don't want to. Don't think I'll change my mind.

But the internship will be good enough.

It's falling together great, so it must be right.

Anyway;

yeah.

I love you all. ♥

-Ms. Conduit

Alright guys,

this is a random

but somewhat

serious post.

I have an ovarian cyst.

No big deal, they aren't

usually serious. It's been

there for a while,

and now I'm having symptoms.

I'm not too worried cause

I know God will take care of it,

but I'm getting bad symptoms

and lots of pain. I'm going to get

it checked out soon.

Just please pray that I don't have

to get surgery to have the cyst

removed. Pray that they just

give me some kind of pills.

Because I can't handle this

right now. Satan, get your

junk out of here.

I love you all,

and thanks for reading my blog. ♥

-Ms. Conduit

p.s. church was rocking tonight!

I'll play the game, but I can't stay
I got my head on straight, and I'm not gonna
change, I'm not gonna change
I'll win the race, keep up with the pace
Today is the day that I start to pray
You can't get in my way, no
I'll get by, I'll survive, when the world's
crashing down, when I fall and hit the ground
I will turn myself around, don't you try to
stop me, I won't cry. -Avril Lavigne

"There comes a time when the world gets quiet and the only thing left is your own heart.
So you'd better learn the sound of it. Otherwise you'll never understand what it's saying."

"Music is a total constant. That's why we have such a strong visceral connection to it, you know? Because a song can take you back instantly to a moment, or a place, or even a person. No matter what else has changed in your or the world, that one song says the same, just like that moment."

"Some things don't last forever, but some things do. Like a good song, or a good book, or a good memory you can take out and unfold in your darkest times, pressing down on the corners and peering in close, hoping you still recognize the person you see there."

"It's just that...I just think that some things are meant to be broken. Imperfect. Chaotic. It's the universe's way of providing contrast, you know? There have to be a few holes in the road. It's how life is."

"You can't always get the perfect moment.
Sometimes, you just have to do the best you can under the circumstances."

"Holding people away from you, and denying yourself love, that doesn't make you strong.
if anything, it makes you weaker. Because you're doing it out of fear."

"And I'll do anything you ever
Dreamed to be complete
Little pieces of the nothing that fall"

"You are the author of love,
our freedom is in Your name.
embracing the cross made for us,
You brought us to life again.
caught in Your love,
with all we are let us say...
God our hope, and our salvation,
worthy of all the praise, be our light
everlasting. Great is Your name,
Jesus the first and the last."

"My mission in life is not merely to survive, but to thrive;
and to do so with some passion, some compassion, some humor, and some style"

"We must be willing to give up the
life we have planned to have the life
that God planned, that is waiting for us."

-Ms. Conduit

Hung out with my sister today.

Worked out. Ate mcdonalds.

Watched TV. Dyed my hair.

Played video games. Goofed.

Then I came home.

Gotta be up early. Going to zumba

and then getting my hair cut.

Then starbucks for bible study.

And a friends house to make music.

Then stopping at trinity to surprise

Ted. And then heading to church.

So yeah. Busy.

I'm doing pretty good, considering

all. Actually, I'm great. Just wish things

hadn't ended the way they did.

But in all honesty,

I can't stand when people act like one

person when everything is going fine,

and then completely change when they

don't get their way. It's just.. it's ridiculous.

Two- faced people should not exist.

But they do. And it's so hard to know who

they are. Who's real, who's not.

But I know one thing; I still have Jesus.

And He's the same yesterday, today,

and forever.

Oh haii, time for tea and devotionals before

bed. I love you all so very much.

-Ms. Conduit

P.s. quote post coming up right after this ♥

Hi, I'm still alive.

Friday had a meeting for the

superchick concert that I'm gonna

be working at on April 30th.

Saturday ate the best cake I've

ever had, met some new people,

and just chilled.

Yesterday, Went to church,

got wendys, played video games,

watched "UP"(which was ridiculously

adorable), Consumed a pound of candy,

and chilled with my sister.

Today I'm just lazing around.

I'm back though.

It's not easy to be without you

blogger =P

Anyway...

I'm tired.

I'll post more eventually.

I love you all.

-Ms. Conduit