Because there's always a tomorrow...

Dear blogger,
I'm back again and I'm sorry for my last post.
Things aren't too bad,they just seem like it. I need to just suck it up.
I gotta get a positive attitude,and move on.

I went bowling with my sister and Chris today. And it wasn't too fun. But,on the bright side tomorrow there's a lockin at the roc. That should be fun,and get me back on my feet. The lock ins are always insane,and make you crazy and pumped.So,hopefully it will. And Sunday,will rock. Because I love Sundays/get to go to church/and see Sam. I think on Monday we're headed out to West Virginia. Hopefully,that would be amazing. I need a vacation desperately. And I love staying with David and Maria. It's tons of fun.


I need to lost a couple pounds,all of this stress is making me eat!Ach.I fail,I need a new way to cope.


-Christina Conduit.

What could possibly go wrong?

So,have you ever had one of those days where everything that could possibly goes wrong,does?
-I haven't talked to Sam since Sunday,because I feel like if I always start the conversations he'll think I'm a stalker.
-My ex got a girlfriend,and I don't know why that even bothers me.
-Owen is being mean to me because I won't date him again,I even explained to him that I'm not dating again until my birthday,and told him we could try if he was willing to wait,and he said screw that.
-I've been cooped up in this house for two days straight.
And I think that's it.
I'm such a complainer,looking at this now it doesn't seem so bad.


But man,I just feel so weak.I need to focus on God..I was doing so good,but then lost it again. It's just rough. I can't live without him,but I try to.

Anyhoo,this is just a short post to say that I'm losing my mind.

-Christina Conduit.

And this is what happens when you go a few days without posting on blogger...

Hi!I'm tired -.- It's finally the end of a worthless Monday.Ach,it's no fun.I was going to go to Carrollton tomorrow,but I guess I'm not.I'm considering going to the girls movie night at "The Roc" But I don't really know if I feel like doing that.Wednesday..I've got nothing.I don't know,I thought I had a lot of plans.

But anyways,earlier today I went for a walk,I followed the railroad tracks,to a place I'd never been before..I found this secret place where you can watch over cars on the highway.It just gave me time to think,sitting there watching cars go by.Then I kept on walking,and walking.I found a clearing,with a little old shed..and I heard a truck starting up,and got a churning feeling in my belly.So I turned and ran back.Tomorrow I want to go check that place out again.It feels like an adventure to me.My video camera will definitely be there to capture every moment of whatever this may be.Yes,I'm a bit weird.I feel poetic today.But the weird thing is,I don't really have anything interesting to say.Ughhh.

Me and Janelle had a fantastic weekend,watched 3 movies,went to the fair,and pulled one all nighter. Well,she went to bed. I stayed up on webcam. I don't feel like talking about every little detail,but no..I didn't run into my ex at the fair. Kinda thankful for that. And I talked to someone at church..My newest crush pretty much..I had added him on facebook two days before..haha. He's pretty cool.I'm sure you'll hear more about him.


But other than that,nothing is going on.

-Christina Conduit.

Rawr,I'm still alive.

VBS.

Well hello.I pretty much died for a while.I helped with VBS,and wow.I had the 3-5 year old class,and they were amazing.Although some of them were really bad.I think they taught me more then I taught them.All in all,I'm glad I signed up.I felt as though God was asking me to sign up,which usually helping with a bunch of snotty nosed kids isn't much of my favorite thing to do.But I listened to Him,and now I see why He wanted me to help.I'm better with kids now,got closer to an old friend,and had a ton of fun.

This weekend.

I am picking Janelle up tonight and she's staying with me till Sunday.So today,I'll be cleaning the bathroom before she comes over.I finally finished my room,and I'm thrilled about that.I'm not sure what we'll do tomorrow,probably rent a movie or something.Saturday we're going to the fair all day,which isn't looking too good due to the fact that it has chances of storm on the weather channel.Oh joy.And I know I'm gonna run into my ex.I just know it!But I'm going to have fun at all costs!Then Sunday we were gonna go horseback riding,but I'll probably drop her off at church and skip the horseback riding because I don't want to miss youth group for two weeks in a row.I finished the video I made for the youth,from camp.It's pretty amazing,and the first one I've ever made.So I feel pretty good about it.But yeah,that's the excuses for my long absence.I should do a special post or something..

-Christina Conduit

Million miles away,and still thinking of him..

I've figured out the first thing I have to give up to God.

Mufu.
That's one thing,I have got to let go of.
He was never mine,and never will be.He's God's.I enjoyed having him as a friend,
but it appears as though I'm not meant to have him in my life at all.
It's so hard to understand and get over it. Because I miss him terribly.I just wanna talk to him.
God,I need the strength to let him go.
After 1 year,and one month of him being far away, and not talking to him in 11 months,
I think it's time to let go.

This shouldn't grip me like this,my heart aches everytime he comes across my mind.
Which is almost all the time.It's hard to let go after getting so close to someone.
God,I pray that he's doing alright.
I'm going to let him go right now,that's it.No more thoughts of Mufu,this is the first thing I have to give you.
If I ever want you to write my love story.

Mufu is yours.I'm done.I'm letting go,not forgetting,but not remembering every waking second.

Goodbye my dear.


-Christina Conduit.

Here we go again..

Song of Solomon- read.

God is the ultimate romantic.

For things to start changing ,you've gotta give him every area of your life.
WHAT!Okay God,you can sail my boat...
I'll just be ...uhhh..down in MY room.
*knock knock*
You want this room too God?I've given you everything else!

why this too?!


Honestly,I didn't wanna let him in. That was my room, with nothing useful in it, just everything that makes me, me.My reputation,the things I adore,what means the most to me.

I know what you're thinking..."don't let him in Christina!" welp,I let Him in.I'm not sure what it's gonna do for me,but I've given God everything.All of it is in His hands now.

He is no fool who gives what he cannot keep,to gain what he cannot lose.

Daniel 3

The Image of Gold and the Fiery Furnace

¹ King Nebuchadnezzar made an image of gold, ninety feet high and nine feet wide, and set it up on the plain of Dura in the province of Babylon. ² He then summoned the satraps, prefects, governors, advisers, treasurers, judges, magistrates and all the other provincial officials to come to the dedication of the image he had set up. ³ So the satraps, prefects, governors, advisers, treasurers, judges, magistrates and all the other provincial officials assembled for the dedication of the image that King Nebuchadnezzar had set up, and they stood before it.

⁴ Then the herald loudly proclaimed, "This is what you are commanded to do, O peoples, nations and men of every language: ⁵ As soon as you hear the sound of the horn, flute, zither, lyre, harp, pipes and all kinds of music, you must fall down and worship the image of gold that King Nebuchadnezzar has set up. ⁶ Whoever does not fall down and worship will immediately be thrown into a blazing furnace."

⁷ Therefore, as soon as they heard the sound of the horn, flute, zither, lyre, harp and all kinds of music, all the peoples, nations and men of every language fell down and worshiped the image of gold that King Nebuchadnezzar had set up.

⁸ At this time some astrologers came forward and denounced the Jews. ⁹ They said to King Nebuchadnezzar, "O king, live forever! ¹⁰ You have issued a decree, O king, that everyone who hears the sound of the horn, flute, zither, lyre, harp, pipes and all kinds of music must fall down and worship the image of gold, ¹¹ and that whoever does not fall down and worship will be thrown into a blazing furnace. ¹² But there are some Jews whom you have set over the affairs of the province of Babylon—Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego—who pay no attention to you, O king. They neither serve your gods nor worship the image of gold you have set up."

¹³ Furious with rage, Nebuchadnezzar summoned Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego. So these men were brought before the king, ¹⁴ and Nebuchadnezzar said to them, "Is it true, Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego, that you do not serve my gods or worship the image of gold I have set up? ¹⁵ Now when you hear the sound of the horn, flute, zither, lyre, harp, pipes and all kinds of music, if you are ready to fall down and worship the image I made, very good. But if you do not worship it, you will be thrown immediately into a blazing furnace. Then what god will be able to rescue you from my hand?"

¹⁶ Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego replied to the king, "O Nebuchadnezzar, we do not need to defend ourselves before you in this matter. ¹⁷ If we are thrown into the blazing furnace, the God we serve is able to save us from it, and he will rescue us from your hand, O king. ¹⁸ But even if he does not, we want you to know, O king, that we will not serve your gods or worship the image of gold you have set up."

¹⁹ Then Nebuchadnezzar was furious with Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego, and his attitude toward them changed. He ordered the furnace heated seven times hotter than usual ²⁰ and commanded some of the strongest soldiers in his army to tie up Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego and throw them into the blazing furnace. ²¹ So these men, wearing their robes, trousers, turbans and other clothes, were bound and thrown into the blazing furnace. ²² The king's command was so urgent and the furnace so hot that the flames of the fire killed the soldiers who took up Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego, ²³ and these three men, firmly tied, fell into the blazing furnace.

²⁴ Then King Nebuchadnezzar leaped to his feet in amazement and asked his advisers, "Weren't there three men that we tied up and threw into the fire?"
They replied, "Certainly, O king."

²⁵ He said, "Look! I see four men walking around in the fire, unbound and unharmed, and the fourth looks like a son of the gods."

²⁶ Nebuchadnezzar then approached the opening of the blazing furnace and shouted, "Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego, servants of the Most High God, come out! Come here!"
So Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego came out of the fire, ²⁷ and the satraps, prefects, governors and royal advisers crowded around them. They saw that the fire had not harmed their bodies, nor was a hair of their heads singed; their robes were not scorched, and there was no smell of fire on them.

²⁸ Then Nebuchadnezzar said, "Praise be to the God of Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego, who has sent his angel and rescued his servants! They trusted in him and defied the king's command and were willing to give up their lives rather than serve or worship any god except their own God. ²⁹ Therefore I decree that the people of any nation or language who say anything against the God of Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego be cut into pieces and their houses be turned into piles of rubble, for no other god can save in this way."

³⁰ Then the king promoted Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego in the province of Babylon.

God,I give it to you. I'm gonna trust you. Every part of my life is yours, even the part I didn't want you open up to you. I'm giving it to you now.

-Christina Conduit

Christina Conduit is..

Trusting God with her love story.
So,I am single again.And that's it,I've decided something.

This may sound strange,but I've decided that I won't give my heart to another guy until God shows me it's my husband!
How do I expect to find someone without looking?
I believe,that if God wants me to be married,He will pick him out for me.
You disagree with me?You think God doesn't want us to waste his time asking for something like that?You think he wants us to pick and then blesses our choice?
Well all I know is,everytime I've tried to pick out a guy for my life,I realize that in the long run,I have horrible taste.If God had 10 men line up in front of me,and said "Christina,you pick" I'd fall flat on my face before Him and say "God you know me better then I know myself,YOU pick!"


God,I've just given you the pen to my love story.
I'm going to stay single till my birthday 12/23 no matter what.
And maybe for a whole year if possible.

So,there you have it folks!I've just given God my love life.I'm done with this shallow dating,I date guys for a week and then it's over.There's something wrong there.God knows what he's doing,so I'm gonna trust him.

-Christina Conduit