Ach what a Monday........

Oh Hai there...

I have just about had it.People make me so freaking angry.
Gah.It's like I can't do anything right.But it's not me,it's them.
Rofl.

But anyhoo,I'm great.Yep,I may have had it with people but I'm happy.All I need is my iPod,a good friend,and a long winding road.I'm fine,I swear.I have band practice and church tonight.I'm gonna see if Taylor wants to go.I don't feel too well.I think I've got something.At least I don't feel as bad as I did the other day.

"Oh crap,I thought that was my dad at the door ringing the doorbell to be funny.But it wasn't and I didn't fix my makeup or anything after I threw up all over.I'm sorry I look so horrible,just don't let it bother you" ..."you don't look horrible.And it's okay"


"what's wrong?"
"Oh nothing,I'm just thinking."
"About what?"
"I don't know if I should tell you,cause I don't wanna freak you out."
"Please tell me."
"Alright...I like you."
"I was kinda hoping for that,and?"
"and I love your personality."
"And?"
"and you're gorgeous."
"And?"
"And you're amazing."
"And?"
"And I can actually put up with you."
"And?"
"And I'm losing my tolerance.Haha Just kidding."
"Well I'm gonna keep saying and until you say what I wanna hear."
"And,I know this is a bit straightforward,but I was wondering if maybe you'd wanna date me?"
One word was all it took.
"Yes."






"Lets talk about something so they don't get suspiceous,what's you're favorite color?"
"Okay,and I'd have to say blue."
"Just like your eyes."
*smiles*


Eep.My heart.♥ Ka-BOOM!


-Christina Conduit

And who woulda thunk it....

Wow.So I pretty much had a great fabulous incredible weekend.If those are even good words for it.I didn't settle for just okay.And you know what?I'm freaking happy now.So anyhoo,I went down to my other house for the whole weekend.What did I expect?Nothing at all.

But I left with a lot more then I came with.Coincidence?Not at all.God certainly is good.

I mean,wow.I'm great.Although I felt the worst pain I've ever felt and threw up like 3 times,I'm wonderful.I mean,I expected nothing.

I guess when you don't expect anything you get more then you bargained for.

Which is good.


So,I think it's time to start blogging again.I've been failing a lot lately.
Do yall remember ol' Jonny boy?Well yeah,he's a douche bag I guess.hahaha.He totally bailed out on us all.I mean,ach..what are we gonna do now?Go pay big bucks?No thanks.I totally quit.


But who cares about that anyways.I'm restless,and took a shower at 3am,I mean what's up with that?!?I'm not sure what else to do so I'm gonna sit here and type about I donno what.

Erm,lets see here....Chocolate milk sounds great right now but it's all the way downstairs and I'm too scared to go get it.haha.I have no idea.I'm being so weird.Eeep.

I like the color green.gah.Hm,I think whatshernamethatIwonttellyouwho is starting to see that I'm not such a bad person after all.She got everyone to plot against me because they all fall for her game.But she was sad the other day and I was the mature one who went over and asked what was wrong.It was something about those kids whom I don't like,and I told her that's why I don't hang out with them cause they're bound to piss you off.And she talked to me a bit.First time in a while.Since mr.stupid rock your world guy.Yeah,more like destroy world.Ach,I'm not even going there.


I ruined the lovely color green,by talking about jerks.SO,I'll use this color for something better.I have about 20 some energy drink cans on my dresser.I never throw them away haha.That's intense.I wonder how tubesteaks doing.Hahah I remember that kid.I miss how he used to be.Eep,now he's all with whatsherface whom treats me like crap.I'm listening to music.Interesting aye.Smileys look retarded on blogger.I hate it so much.=P see?<---------------


Ach you guys,I'll be more orginized next time with this.but for now just myspace me,msn,aim,whatever.

-Christina Conduit the most grooviest chick on the planet as Dwayne says.haha.What a weirdo.

It's time to grow up,put up,or shut up!

I've finally started to get it right.I know,crazy huh?

-I don't like the guy I liked last week,because he is not what I need..I lowered my standards and my morals so I might have had a chance with him,but that's stupid.I need someone who accepts me as I am.

-I've come to understand that I don't always have to have a boyfriend.

-I have a passion,I wanna learn more and more about God.I wanna win souls to Christ.Ken Gaub helped me make this realization.

-Everyones purpose,we are all here to worship God,but we all have different destinies.

-I don't gotta worry about what's going on in America,or in the world,or in Bolivar,because I know what's going on in my world,And in the end I win!

-I'm content.

Kinda crazy,you might think I'm weird or illusinating but I'm fine.I'm alright for once.Everything is fine,I don't care what's going on with them.But I wanna help them.

All these girls,who think they have to have a boyfriend to be happy,and all these guys who only want one thing,they just don't understand.And 15 year old guys/girls who think they're in love.How foolish!Love isn't sex,love isn't a feeling.Love is a commitment and putting up with each other.Love is when you can put God first in your relationship,and love is when you can date without any physical ness,or whatever you'd call it.I think we need to shake some people,and ask them what in hell do they want?There is nothing in hell but pain.Never ending burning scorching fire.Torture.But yet,people go on living for themselves,they say that they are the ones who rule their lives.That's not living,and they sure don't understand.

Ken Gaub was on an airplane traveling,and he got stuck sitting by a man who had a very dirty mouth,so Ken looks over at this guy and says,"Do you wanna go to heaven?" and the guy says,"No,not really" then Ken replied "Then go to hell!" And everyone on the plane started clapping,and Ken said "Are you clapping because of what I said,or because he's going to hell?"

Funny stuff!But it's so sad that people don't get it.Ken Gaub is a great soul winner,with his wit and humor,I want to do that.Be able to win people as he does for the kingdom of God.I'm working on it at this point.I've pulled out all my christian shirts,with christian sayings on them,All my "how to win souls for Christ" books,and I've packed my bible in my purse so it goes everywhere with me.Who knows,maybe it will get people talking.Maybe they will wonder what I have that makes me content with myself,I don't have to have a boyfriend to be happy,and I don't have to do drugs/drink/or smoke to be happy.Cause I've got Jesus.He loves you,and there ain't nothing you can do about it!I love that.How can people look at all the beauty in this world,and say there's not a God?It boggles my mind.But now I'm gonna get out there and make a difference.I'm gonna get to these people,I'm gonna do whatever I have to.I've gotta make a difference for God's kingdom.I've gotta help.America is a christian nation,and I'm not letting Obama,or anyone throw that away!It's time to grow up,put up,or shut up!


-Classical Christina

Exhausted and ready to go..

You know what?

I'm afraid.Yall know,that I'm not one to ever be afraid of anything,but I actually am.
Only 1 in 100 of the couples that get married,are truly in love and meant for each other.But those 99,they all chose the wrong person and it usually ends up in divorce!
But anyways,I'm afraid that I'll end up being one of those 99.At this point,I'm stuck in hicktown,no,it's not even hicktown...it's nowhere!At least hicktown is somewhat normal.Down here,everyone gossips and it spreads like crazy just because it's such a small town.I can't do anything without someone finding out.I'm ready to get out of here.Maybe move to West Virginia and live with David.Oh if only I could.I absolutely cannot stand this place.There is no one here,I have no trust worthy friends,except for people 20 and up.Is that weird?Yes.Because all of the effin kids down here are whores and total jerks.And why do I not fit in with them?Because when someone is trying to tell me a story about someone else,I say "I don't want to get caught up in the gossip,so take it somewhere else" and every guy I've dated,they all want something after only two effin weeks of dating,and when I tell them they aren't getting any,I'm considered "ms.goody two shoes" or whatever the hell it is.So I'm trying to live my life problem free and I'm waiting a while for anything to happen,shouldn't that make me better then them in a sense?But no,I'm just considered a loser.It's all good though.I mean,I've got a lot of good karma coming my way,right?"Do unto others as you would have them do to you?"."Measure and it will be measured back to you?" Right now it seems like all I'm getting is a bunch of total douches.But I know eventually I should get what I deserve.The beauty of grace,is that it makes life not fair.


"I've given up,on doing this alone now,cause I've failed and I'm ready to be shown now,you've showed me the way and I'm trying to get there"-Relient K


"So what's wrong with taking the backstreets?You'll never know if you don't go,you'll never shine if you don't glow.."-Smash mouth


Where to go,who to turn to?I have nothing left,but if I ain't got nothing I've got nothing to lose.


I'm alive and I'm free,who wouldn't wanna be me?


Tell me what should I do?All my paths led me to you.If you're not on the path to me,how did we end up meeting in the middle?Everything happens for a reason darling,but why won't you understand that?The fact that I'm right here in front of you..-Christina Shumard


You take away the old
Show me the new
And I feel like I can fly when I stand next to you.


"So long, put your blue jeans back on girl
Go home
Remember Hollywood’s not America
So long put your blue jeans back on girl
Go home
Remember Hollywood’s not America
Oh yeah

And everybody heres, from somewhere else
You could make a million dollars, but you might lose yourself
And you can take the heat will your heart go cold
They say acting’s just pretending, even that gets old"-hollywoods not america



"Don’t treat me to the things of this world
I’m not that kind of girl
Your love is what I prefer, what I deserve
Is a man that makes me, then takes me
And delivers me to a destiny, to infinity and beyond
Pull me into your arms
Say I’m the one you own
If you don’t, you’ll be alone
And like a ghost I’ll be gone

All the single ladies
Now put your hands up
woo oh ooh oh oh ooh oh oh ooh
oh oh oh

Cuz if you liked it then you should have put a ring on it
If you liked it then you shoulda put a ring on it
Don’t be mad once you see that he want it
If you liked it then you shoulda put a ring on it woo oh ooh"-Beyonce



cause when push comes to shove you taste what your made of, you might bend till you break cause its all you can take on your knees
you look up decide you've had enough you get mad you get
strong wipe your hands shake it off then you stand.


Oh what a shame,what a rainy ending to a perfect day.

Bleck

!!!!

Because after all....

you're my wonderwall<3

Quotes?

If you don't go after what you want, you'll never have it.
If you don't ask, the answer is always no. if you
don't step forward, you're always in the same place.



There are a lot of obstacles in life.
You can try to walk around them,
pretend they're not there,
and pretend not to care,
but in the end the only person that
you would be fooling is yourself.



Don't be afraid to make mistakes, to stumble and fall because most of the time the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most. Maybe you'll get everything you wish for. Maybe you'll get more than you could have imagine. Who knows where life could take you. The road is long
and in the end the journey is the
destination.


Don't be afraid of death,
be afraid of an unlived life.
You don't have to live forever,
you just have to live.



Don't hold my hand if you aren't willing to take everything that comes with it.


I want to believe what I want to
believe, that someday the future holds
for me something special, yet something
unique, somewhere over the rainbow.


Keep your head high gorgeous.
There are people that would
kill to see you fall.


We used to be friends you know,
once upon a time when I was
good enough for you.



you change for one of two reasons
either you learn enough to want to.
or you've been hurt enough you have to.

To live is the rarest thing.
Most people only exist.

He had one of those rare smiles. With quality of eternal reassurance in it that you may come across four or five times in life.

So yeah,I think that's all for now.