Exhausted and ready to go..

You know what?

I'm afraid.Yall know,that I'm not one to ever be afraid of anything,but I actually am.
Only 1 in 100 of the couples that get married,are truly in love and meant for each other.But those 99,they all chose the wrong person and it usually ends up in divorce!
But anyways,I'm afraid that I'll end up being one of those 99.At this point,I'm stuck in hicktown,no,it's not even hicktown...it's nowhere!At least hicktown is somewhat normal.Down here,everyone gossips and it spreads like crazy just because it's such a small town.I can't do anything without someone finding out.I'm ready to get out of here.Maybe move to West Virginia and live with David.Oh if only I could.I absolutely cannot stand this place.There is no one here,I have no trust worthy friends,except for people 20 and up.Is that weird?Yes.Because all of the effin kids down here are whores and total jerks.And why do I not fit in with them?Because when someone is trying to tell me a story about someone else,I say "I don't want to get caught up in the gossip,so take it somewhere else" and every guy I've dated,they all want something after only two effin weeks of dating,and when I tell them they aren't getting any,I'm considered "ms.goody two shoes" or whatever the hell it is.So I'm trying to live my life problem free and I'm waiting a while for anything to happen,shouldn't that make me better then them in a sense?But no,I'm just considered a loser.It's all good though.I mean,I've got a lot of good karma coming my way,right?"Do unto others as you would have them do to you?"."Measure and it will be measured back to you?" Right now it seems like all I'm getting is a bunch of total douches.But I know eventually I should get what I deserve.The beauty of grace,is that it makes life not fair.


"I've given up,on doing this alone now,cause I've failed and I'm ready to be shown now,you've showed me the way and I'm trying to get there"-Relient K


"So what's wrong with taking the backstreets?You'll never know if you don't go,you'll never shine if you don't glow.."-Smash mouth


Where to go,who to turn to?I have nothing left,but if I ain't got nothing I've got nothing to lose.


I'm alive and I'm free,who wouldn't wanna be me?


Tell me what should I do?All my paths led me to you.If you're not on the path to me,how did we end up meeting in the middle?Everything happens for a reason darling,but why won't you understand that?The fact that I'm right here in front of you..-Christina Shumard


You take away the old
Show me the new
And I feel like I can fly when I stand next to you.


"So long, put your blue jeans back on girl
Go home
Remember Hollywood’s not America
So long put your blue jeans back on girl
Go home
Remember Hollywood’s not America
Oh yeah

And everybody heres, from somewhere else
You could make a million dollars, but you might lose yourself
And you can take the heat will your heart go cold
They say acting’s just pretending, even that gets old"-hollywoods not america



"Don’t treat me to the things of this world
I’m not that kind of girl
Your love is what I prefer, what I deserve
Is a man that makes me, then takes me
And delivers me to a destiny, to infinity and beyond
Pull me into your arms
Say I’m the one you own
If you don’t, you’ll be alone
And like a ghost I’ll be gone

All the single ladies
Now put your hands up
woo oh ooh oh oh ooh oh oh ooh
oh oh oh

Cuz if you liked it then you should have put a ring on it
If you liked it then you shoulda put a ring on it
Don’t be mad once you see that he want it
If you liked it then you shoulda put a ring on it woo oh ooh"-Beyonce



cause when push comes to shove you taste what your made of, you might bend till you break cause its all you can take on your knees
you look up decide you've had enough you get mad you get
strong wipe your hands shake it off then you stand.


Oh what a shame,what a rainy ending to a perfect day.