Jesus is the reason for my existence. I tried to choose between being a bum or a musician, but then I realized they're the same thing. I'm addicted to coffee and Owl City. My purpose in life is to be all things to all people to lead some of them to Christ, and to love everyone to the hilt. I want to show you kindness like you've never seen before. I want to write a song for you. I wanna feel alive forever after.
Before you point the finger, make sure your own hands are clean.
We all talk about other people being hypocrites, and maybe they are. But do we really look at ourselves? Maybe we should look at our own lives before looking at others. They say to "practice what you preach", well, the sad fact is a lot of people don't. "Oh, you can't do that, it's not right." But then you turn around and do it. Then when confronted "Oh, it's different for me though, because of this, and this." It's really not.
We all need to just stop! Judging gets us nowhere. And don't preach it, if you're not gonna live it. If it's not okay for me to do, it's not okay for you to do either.
Matthew 7:3-5 - Why do you notice the splinter in your brother's eye, but do not perceive the wooden beam in your own eye? How can you say to your brother, 'Let me remove that splinter from your eye,' while the wooden beam is in your eye? You hypocrite, remove the wooden beam from your eye first; then you will see clearly to remove the splinter from your brother's eye.
So I wrote a poem today while sitting in the car. It's not that great. But that's okay (: Here it be.
"My Heart" by: Christina Shumard
My heart is like a fiber optic light Shedding one color for another all through the night My heart is like a mood ring Changing colors without meaning If it could be like the ocean Sometimes steady, sometimes a storm Waves crashing on the shore, taking it's form Or perhaps if it were like the stars in the sky Speaking to those who dream of destiny Able to open doors just like a key But instead my heart just seems to be weak I let hateful things in too easily I try to fight them but sometimes I give in I will not let selfish motives win I dream of making my heart strong Able to endure when things go wrong When I want to give in, when I want to quit I will fight for what I love I can handle it My heart is like a cloud in the sky Sometimes it rains, sometimes it's dry My heart is like a summer sun Beating down it's warmth across the ground My heart is like many things And nothing can control the feelings it brings.
So, I laid in bed all night. And only slept an hour. All I wanted to do was sleep, but it wouldn't work. Now, I've had an hour of sleep. And leave for church in an hour xP I think I can do this. I know so. The joy of the Lord is my strength. Oy blogger, will I always have insomnia?
Church will be great! I wrote Jake a poem for his birthday, and I'm surely sure he'll love it. Even though it's kinda dumb. But eh. It's the thought that counts. Tamra's bringing a friend to church, it'll be his first time. I'll bet he gets saved. (: I'd be super happy. Ivana's going on vacation for 8 days today \: I miss her already. xD
After church I'm going out to eat with Tamra's people. Then we're going skeet shooting. Well, I don't plan on shooting. I'm too tired. I can sleep on the way there.
Considering the fact that I only had an hour of sleep, I still look pretty good ;D
Looking back at my old self, I discovered I had a completely wrong idea about what love is, and what it is not.
My thoughts on love, were this:
1. Love is a feeling. i.e; tingles,being happy around the person, butterflies,that feeling that you can hardly contain.
Uh, and I guess that was my only thought on it. And whenever that "feeling" went away, it would be done for.
Well you see, I have never been in love. And I know this. But, I think nowadays, I have a better idea of what it is.
My thoughts on love now are:
1. Love is a choice. You will not always be happy with the person, they are going to tick you off, do stupid things, hurt your feelings, and they won't always have makeup on. When you stop basing it on feelings, and start choosing to love them even when they upset you, that is what I believe is the beginning of love.
2. Love is a commitment. I'd say, it's working through arguments. Sticking together even if the feelings go away. Because feelings, they don't always last. Sometimes I feel like God's not there, but I know He is. Sometimes I feel like I don't want to love, but I do regardless. Same idea.
3. Love is patient. Love doesn't nip at someone, right when they offend you, and think of all kinds of clever comebacks to say, or ways to hurt their feelings. When you love someone, you hold your tongue and let yourself calm down before talking to someone, and letting them know they hurt your feelings. Love controls it's emotions. Being easily angered has a lot to do with selfishness. You don't get what you want, so you're going to be angry with the person. Patience, is a huge part of love. None of us are perfect.
4. Love is kind. It doesn't wait for someone to say they need something. You see a need, and you help with it. Kindness creates a blessing. Kindness inspires you to be agreeable. Kindness apologizes, FIRST. And takes initiative. Kindness makes the first move. Even if there is no reward. That is love.
5. Love is not selfish. Love makes a point to put the other person first. Instead of your OWN desires, you see that the other persons needs are met FIRST. You should always have the other persons well being in mind. Their happiness should be important to you. Even if it means going out of your way for them.
There are a billion other things that love is, and is not. But, those are my basics. And that is what I believe. How about you? What do you think love is?
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. 1 Corinthians 13:4-8
Last night, I tried to go to bed early. About 1am. Well, at 3am I woke up really itchy. Only to discover that when I went to bed there had been a mosquito under my blanket with me. I had 5 mosquito bites on my arm, 3 on my leg, and two on my back. That one stupid mosquito, just had to decide "Ohh hey I'm chill under your blanket with you and bite you while you sleep." Well, I got out of bed and sprayed "off" all over myself... then went and slept on the couch. Thank you, mosquito for ruining my sleep. I appreciate it.
I saw Eternity the other night Like a great Ring of pure and endless light All calm as it was bright; And round beneath it, Time, in hours, days, years, Driven by the spheres, Like a vast shadow moved, in which the world And all her train were hurled.
-Henry Vaughn
Monday, June 21, 2010
"There is only one way to happiness and that is to cease worrying about things which are beyond the power of our will."
"A fool gives full vent to his anger, but a wise man keeps himself under control." Proverbs 29:11
"The purpose of life is not to be happy. It is to be useful, to be honorable, to be compassionate, to have it make some difference that you have lived and lived well."
To be free, to feel weightless, like nothing can stop you. It's a dream, it's a hope. It's a wonderful feeling. To let go and have faith that you will be caught by love. To run, to fly, to dance no matter who watches. To quit caring what others think of you, and just to be who you are. To not worry what will happen tomorrow. To fight for what is rightfully yours. To let go. To jump. To just close your eyes and let it be.
