Jesus is the reason for my existence. I tried to choose between being a bum or a musician, but then I realized they're the same thing. I'm addicted to coffee and Owl City. My purpose in life is to be all things to all people to lead some of them to Christ, and to love everyone to the hilt. I want to show you kindness like you've never seen before. I want to write a song for you. I wanna feel alive forever after.
I love the little things in life that make me happy. Today,I found the shirt I wanted,in my size FINALLY. And,while at goodwill, I found two of the Harry Potter books. I didn't think I would ever see them at goodwill. Though I've already read the whole series, I bought them. Because I want them in book form,so I can read them again,and again. I <3 HP.
So,something weird happened. Yesterday, this guy was at a store I was at. And then he was at the next store I went to. We laughed about it. Today,in a COMPLETELY different town... he was in the same store as me... I thought that was so strange. Haha.
Also,I've went out in public twice without makeup now. I'm amazed at myself. Andd not to mention this good looking guy waved at me.. and this other one was checking me out. Bahaha not that I care. But it makes me feel a little more confident about trying this.. "no makeup" thing.
I am SO ruddy tired. I want to sleep,but I'm trying to get some work done. I reckon I'll go to bed soon and just finish it tomorrow before church.
&& there's this thing, that makes me smile.
Yeah yeah,I know.. I do this a lot. Sigh. It's just been a long time.
God is good. He put me where I need to be,and I trust Him.
So,I had a really awesome day yesterday. Like,really. One of my best days. Morning church, was really awesome. Playing music, was awesome. Being loved, was awesome. God is great. Ohh and *guy puffs belly out* "I'm gonna have a baby, a hot dog baby!" hahahah. Oh my word. I love this place.
Last person you told a secret to? ShaLacey,maybe? Or Jake xD
Who was the last person(s) you hung out with? Well I ran into some old friends yesterday, and we talked a bit if that counts.
When was the last time you really laughed? Yesterday.
Who was the last person you cried in front of? Church people. Though no one was meant to see that.
Who was the last person you hugged? Jerry.
Who are your best friends? I don't technically have one that I see a lot, but I'd say Ted. He's the best.
Is there a person of the opposite sex that means a lot to you? As a friend. ^^
What do you hear right now? Nothing.
Do you want to start over with anyone? You know,I'd really love to. Though it's almost been two years since that incident.. I miss my friend.. very much.
If you were in the hospital, would the last person you kissed visit you? I have no idea. If I wasn't a 3 hour drive away maybe.
Do you miss someone? Well,is it possible to miss someone you technically haven't had a real conversation with?
Is there someone who meant a lot to you at one point that isn't around now? Yes. That wonderful friend..
Where's your phone right now? Beside me.
Did the last person you kiss have a tattoo? No.
Have you hugged anyone in the last 72 hours? Sure have.
Do you like waking up and having new text messages? I do. And I especially love "Good morning" texts, though no one sends those much anymore.
Will tomorrow be a good day? Yes. Well,from my guess. Church,and we're all hanging out again afterwards. I really like this crowd. I think this is the church I'm meant to be at :)
When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face? Oh man,Tuesday maybe? Though I'd never do it. xD
Are you the same as you were at the beginning of 2008? Oh no. Not at all.
If you married the last person that texted you, what would your last name be? I'd rather not.
Were you single on your last birthday? Yes.
Are you jealous of someone right now? No.
Can you commit to one person? Sure can.
If you woke up next to the last person you texted, what would you say? I would THEN consider the "punching someone in their face" thing xD
How many boyfriends have you had in 2010? 0. My 9 month singleversary is coming up baby. Jesus will send me the right guy eventually. :)
Are you satisfied with your life right now? I am.
What is something you like to do when you're down? Play guitar.
Can you whistle? Sure can.
What are your initials? CMS.
How do you feel about yourself as a person? I love me. xD
What is something that you're looking forward to? Tomorrow.
Whens the last time you cried? Two weeks ago maybe?
Do you prefer to take your showers at night or in the morning? Morning. I sometimes take two a day though. I have a shower fetish? xD
What was the reason behind why you last cried? I was remembering when things used to be good in my old church.. missed it,and brokedown during praise and worship.. -.- I had to leave the room. But now I'm done there. I loved my pastor,and still do, but he doesn't have my respect anymore. Neither do hardly any of the leaders there. I'm living for God more than they are,and most of them are twice my age or more.
Is there someone you could spend every minute with and be happy? I dunno,people can get on my nerves after a while..
Can you honestly say that looks don't matter? Sure can.
Who did you instant message last? Gee... No idea. I only use facebookIM and it was probably ShaLacey.
Is there anyone who doesn't like you for no apparent reason? Oh there's a lot of those.
Have you had your heart broken? Maybe only slightly cracked.
Have you ever been with anyone and thought “I want to be with this person forever”? Yes.
Have you ever dated someone older then you? Yes.
Tell me what’s on your mind? I need to get ready for work,but I don't feel like it. I'm tired. I can't wait till tomorrow. This one kid has this real nice smile which is rather charming. I really wanna play guitar right now and might do so. I'm frozen.
What do you do when you have a bad day? Depends. I like sleeping.
Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today? Sure haven't.
Do you say sorry first? Depends.. but I say sorry wayyyyyyyy toooooo much, and I shouldn't.
Have you ever held hands with the driver while they were driving? No,xD I'd rather not be the cause of an accident.
Something you’re happy about? I'm gonna have $60 to waste after today. Can anyone say videogames and starbucks?
Do you wish you never dated someone you dated? Nah. I mean,sometimes I think I'd of been better off but it's all taught me to make better choices, and that's what counts,right?
Is it usually easy to make you smile? Mhmmm, but for me to truly smile, its no easy task.
Marriage in your future? Oh yes.
Are you afraid of commitment? No.
Have you ever been in a perfect relationship? No such thing.
How did you get your last bruise? Falling down a concrete step xD
Have you ever liked someone older than you? Usually the way it goes.
Who’s in your profile picture with you? No one.
What are you doing tomorrow? Church, Guitar, Chilling, Smiling. And hopefully talking to Mr.charming smile. xD
Ever broke a bone? Just one.
Last time you had pizza? It's been a while, you know I really don't like pizza. It's not very good,and VERY unhealthy. If I'm gonna eat something unhealthy,I'd rather it be something tasty like fried chicken..
How many days until your next birthday? 9 or so months.
What surprised you today? Nothing really.
Is your hair naturally curly or straight? More so.. straight,with some bent spots xD
Do you prefer regular or chocolate milk? Eh. I don't drink either much unless it's with chocolate,in cereal,or a milkshake. And I rarely have any of those.
How many people texted you today? 4.
Do you know anyone who is pregnant? I know of someone.
Do you have any hickies? No.
Looking back, did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy or girl? Nah.
Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily? It really depends. I usually let it go.
Could you ever be friends again with someone that broke your heart? I am friends with some of the people who hurt me the most, so yeah.
Who was the last person you had an argument with? I can't remember. I get along with people mostly.
Can you roll your tongue? Nope.
What are you listening to? Nothing.
Do you like scented candles? Oh yeah,especially the vanilla or sugar cookie scented ones..
Did you have a good birthday last year? Last year,not so much. I was at church, no one there said happy birthday to me except like.. Ted and John. Anyone else *shrugs*. I mean,it wasn't bad though. I didn't want a big deal made out of it.
Where are you going on vacation next? No idea. Haven't been on one in ages. I'll consider the Tennessee mission trip a vacation. Or maybe Louisiana if I go.
Have you kissed anyone in the past 48 hours? Sure haven't.
Do you like your first name? It's mine..
Do you have any siblings? Three of my own,three half ones I think?
Did you cry today? Nah.
What were you doing an hour ago? Waking. Or eating breakfast..
What is the weather like today? Ruddy cold.
Do you think it would be more fun to model or to shoot the photographs? Either would be incredibly fun!
Are you younger than 21? Yes.
Do you have feelings for anyone? Maybe,but not feeling feelings. Just like,eh.
Do you know what you're going to put as the subject of this? Nope.
What is the lowest grade you have right now? No clue. I'm doing good.
How often do you buy new makeup? Only occasionally. Black eyeliner usually does it for me.
Do you like the 'new' MySpace? I don't use it.
Are you sick or becoming sick? Yes. =/.
How often do you say 'lol' in a computer or text conversation? Not often, I say haha. =p.
What does your mom say about the pictures on your MySpace? Nothing?
Any feelings for anyone? Not sure.
Do you think anyone has feelings for you? Not sure.
Do you believe in kissing when you're not together yet? Nah. It's dumb.
Friday, March 26, 2010
Do you ever lay in bed at midnight,think about how you have to be up at 6am for work,and really despise insomnia? <3
So,it never ceases to amaze me. What you ask? The fact that I can always make a bloody fool of myself. *sigh* Why must I do it? I can't help it. I can't be normal, being normal is boring. But I just have to make a ruddy fool out of my stinking self. Ha,I don't "stink" though.. I just threw the "stinking" in there to make a point. Oh brother. I've gone mad.
Yesterday Feelings. Don't you rather dislike it when old feelings come back to bother you,yet again? It's absurd. For whatever reason, those ridiculous feelings decide to come back, at any time they want. And you usually can't tell if they're real, or just yourself missing the past. Sometimes I just don't know what to think. Why these ruddy feelings come back sometimes. All I know is,I ain't changing my route. It's all going alright, and I don't need to add something I don't need,because of goofy feelings.
I wish I could say I had something interesting to tell you,blogger. But,I really don't think I do. I went shopping yesterday. I bought the star wars trilogy an Optimus Prime shirt The hobbit Spyro: a new beginning and a kingdom hearts and a star wars poster. I am a nerd,and I rather take pride in it. Today,I mainly went to church. It wasn't that exciting, nothing out of the ordinary. Disappointed me a bit. Tuesday,I'm staying at my other house, because I'd like to go to a church down there. Plus,being stuck here all winter long, I've been DYING to see the lake. I'll bet it's nice... Anyways, nothing else going on that I'm positive of. Might go to this new youth group thing Friday. And that should be a blast?
-Ms. Conduit
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Dear blogger,I am going to see Alice in Wonderland in a little bit. I wonder if it's any good? Only one way to find out. Ms. Conduit
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
40 year old men riding in their cart to get to their car from the store must be AWESOME parents...
All I can say is, Wow God, you're really amazing. You hold my every moment, you calm my raging seas. You love me, even when I don't give you the time of day. You have faith in me,even when I don't have faith in you. You know every step I take, even when I'm not on the path you planned for me. You love me. No matter what. Through every mistake, every misunderstanding, all of my doubt. You love me.
And you know what? I love you. And I'm not ashamed to say so.
