You know what?
I'm afraid.Yall know,that I'm not one to ever be afraid of anything,but I actually am.
Only 1 in 100 of the couples that get married,are truly in love and meant for each other.But those 99,they all chose the wrong person and it usually ends up in divorce!
But anyways,I'm afraid that I'll end up being one of those 99.At this point,I'm stuck in hicktown,no,it's not even hicktown...it's nowhere!At least hicktown is somewhat normal.Down here,everyone gossips and it spreads like crazy just because it's such a small town.I can't do anything without someone finding out.I'm ready to get out of here.Maybe move to West Virginia and live with David.Oh if only I could.I absolutely cannot stand this place.There is no one here,I have no trust worthy friends,except for people 20 and up.Is that weird?Yes.Because all of the effin kids down here are whores and total jerks.And why do I not fit in with them?Because when someone is trying to tell me a story about someone else,I say "I don't want to get caught up in the gossip,so take it somewhere else" and every guy I've dated,they all want something after only two effin weeks of dating,and when I tell them they aren't getting any,I'm considered "ms.goody two shoes" or whatever the hell it is.So I'm trying to live my life problem free and I'm waiting a while for anything to happen,shouldn't that make me better then them in a sense?But no,I'm just considered a loser.It's all good though.I mean,I've got a lot of good karma coming my way,right?"Do unto others as you would have them do to you?"."Measure and it will be measured back to you?" Right now it seems like all I'm getting is a bunch of total douches.But I know eventually I should get what I deserve.The beauty of grace,is that it makes life not fair.
"I've given up,on doing this alone now,cause I've failed and I'm ready to be shown now,you've showed me the way and I'm trying to get there"-Relient K
"So what's wrong with taking the backstreets?You'll never know if you don't go,you'll never shine if you don't glow.."-Smash mouth
Where to go,who to turn to?I have nothing left,but if I ain't got nothing I've got nothing to lose.
I'm alive and I'm free,who wouldn't wanna be me?
Tell me what should I do?All my paths led me to you.If you're not on the path to me,how did we end up meeting in the middle?Everything happens for a reason darling,but why won't you understand that?The fact that I'm right here in front of you..-Christina Shumard
You take away the old
Show me the new
And I feel like I can fly when I stand next to you.
"So long, put your blue jeans back on girl
Go home
Remember Hollywood’s not America
So long put your blue jeans back on girl
Go home
Remember Hollywood’s not America
Oh yeah
And everybody heres, from somewhere else
You could make a million dollars, but you might lose yourself
And you can take the heat will your heart go cold
They say acting’s just pretending, even that gets old"-hollywoods not america
"Don’t treat me to the things of this world
I’m not that kind of girl
Your love is what I prefer, what I deserve
Is a man that makes me, then takes me
And delivers me to a destiny, to infinity and beyond
Pull me into your arms
Say I’m the one you own
If you don’t, you’ll be alone
And like a ghost I’ll be gone
All the single ladies
Now put your hands up
woo oh ooh oh oh ooh oh oh ooh
oh oh oh
Cuz if you liked it then you should have put a ring on it
If you liked it then you shoulda put a ring on it
Don’t be mad once you see that he want it
If you liked it then you shoulda put a ring on it woo oh ooh"-Beyonce
cause when push comes to shove you taste what your made of, you might bend till you break cause its all you can take on your knees
you look up decide you've had enough you get mad you get
strong wipe your hands shake it off then you stand.
Oh what a shame,what a rainy ending to a perfect day.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Quotes?
If you don't go after what you want, you'll never have it.
If you don't ask, the answer is always no. if you
don't step forward, you're always in the same place.
There are a lot of obstacles in life.
You can try to walk around them,
pretend they're not there,
and pretend not to care,
but in the end the only person that
you would be fooling is yourself.
Don't be afraid to make mistakes, to stumble and fall because most of the time the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most. Maybe you'll get everything you wish for. Maybe you'll get more than you could have imagine. Who knows where life could take you. The road is long
and in the end the journey is the
destination.
Don't be afraid of death,
be afraid of an unlived life.
You don't have to live forever,
you just have to live.
Don't hold my hand if you aren't willing to take everything that comes with it.
I want to believe what I want to
believe, that someday the future holds
for me something special, yet something
unique, somewhere over the rainbow.
Keep your head high gorgeous.
There are people that would
kill to see you fall.
We used to be friends you know,
once upon a time when I was
good enough for you.
you change for one of two reasons
either you learn enough to want to.
or you've been hurt enough you have to.
To live is the rarest thing.
Most people only exist.
He had one of those rare smiles. With quality of eternal reassurance in it that you may come across four or five times in life.
If you don't ask, the answer is always no. if you
don't step forward, you're always in the same place.
There are a lot of obstacles in life.
You can try to walk around them,
pretend they're not there,
and pretend not to care,
but in the end the only person that
you would be fooling is yourself.
Don't be afraid to make mistakes, to stumble and fall because most of the time the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most. Maybe you'll get everything you wish for. Maybe you'll get more than you could have imagine. Who knows where life could take you. The road is long
and in the end the journey is the
destination.
Don't be afraid of death,
be afraid of an unlived life.
You don't have to live forever,
you just have to live.
Don't hold my hand if you aren't willing to take everything that comes with it.
I want to believe what I want to
believe, that someday the future holds
for me something special, yet something
unique, somewhere over the rainbow.
Keep your head high gorgeous.
There are people that would
kill to see you fall.
We used to be friends you know,
once upon a time when I was
good enough for you.
you change for one of two reasons
either you learn enough to want to.
or you've been hurt enough you have to.
To live is the rarest thing.
Most people only exist.
He had one of those rare smiles. With quality of eternal reassurance in it that you may come across four or five times in life.
So yeah,I think that's all for now.
Friday, April 3, 2009
Things don't always make since...
Why in the hell are things so weird lately?My grandfather died on April 1st,and I did not cry,I wasn't even sad.Why?Because I hardly knew him,he never treated me like I was a grand daughter.I mean,he wasn't mean to me or anything,I just didn't know him.My mum's friends' husband also died on April 1st,two in one day.The things that happen on April fools day,completely unforgettable.
But on a lighter note,things are alright for me.Sure they're probably hard for a lot of people,but I'ma doing alright for once in my life.I never complain about my problems,and I won't.I used to be such a complainer,but lately,not at all.Things are going good.I've been content with myself.I haven't called myself ugly or fat in two weeks.For once I'm starting to realize,I have it a lot better then most people.
It's only Friday right now,and usually I sit around complaining about how much I hate Fridays,but not today.My parents are going to someones funeral,not my grandfathers but the other guys.And I don't have to go thank God.I hate funerals.Sure I'm stuck home tonight,but that's okay.And I'll probably still be stuck home tomorrow.Fine,alright.Give it your best shot life,cause I won't be brought down.I have my stereo,my cell phone,and my new empty notebook.That's all I need to get through these two days.
Lets see here,only 3 more days till Monday.I can hardly wait.Although now there's something to cause conflict with my good Monday,and what would that be?My grandfathers funeral is also Monday.The one day I'm meant to be happy and spend time with my crush.How ironic,isn't it?But that's okay.Also,the funeral and everything that comes with it is over at 3:15pm.And I don't have to see *him* till 6:30.I hope that buys me enough time to sort out everything and what I'm gonna do.
Oh,is it random quote time?Yes please.
Stop being afraid of what could go wrong, and think of what could go right.
How do you go forward
if you won't let go of the past?
And how do you open one door
if you can't close the last?
So how does it happen, great love? Nobody knows, but what I can tell you is that it happens in the blink of an eye. One moment you're enjoying your life, and the next you're wondering how you ever lived without them.
You can fear the future or you can embrace it.
The choice is yours
* Smallville *
the days don't seem to change
strolling down memory lane
hand in hand with the person I used to be
before your words spoke symphonies
to here to now to me
hand in hand with the person I used to be..-Jimmy Robbins
"All of the wasted time
The hours that were left behind
The answers that we'll never find
They don't mean a thing tonight"
It's only Friday right now,and usually I sit around complaining about how much I hate Fridays,but not today.My parents are going to someones funeral,not my grandfathers but the other guys.And I don't have to go thank God.I hate funerals.Sure I'm stuck home tonight,but that's okay.And I'll probably still be stuck home tomorrow.Fine,alright.Give it your best shot life,cause I won't be brought down.I have my stereo,my cell phone,and my new empty notebook.That's all I need to get through these two days.
Lets see here,only 3 more days till Monday.I can hardly wait.Although now there's something to cause conflict with my good Monday,and what would that be?My grandfathers funeral is also Monday.The one day I'm meant to be happy and spend time with my crush.How ironic,isn't it?But that's okay.Also,the funeral and everything that comes with it is over at 3:15pm.And I don't have to see *him* till 6:30.I hope that buys me enough time to sort out everything and what I'm gonna do.
Oh,is it random quote time?Yes please.
Stop being afraid of what could go wrong, and think of what could go right.
How do you go forward
if you won't let go of the past?
And how do you open one door
if you can't close the last?
So how does it happen, great love? Nobody knows, but what I can tell you is that it happens in the blink of an eye. One moment you're enjoying your life, and the next you're wondering how you ever lived without them.
You can fear the future or you can embrace it.
The choice is yours
* Smallville *
the days don't seem to change
strolling down memory lane
hand in hand with the person I used to be
before your words spoke symphonies
to here to now to me
hand in hand with the person I used to be..-Jimmy Robbins
"All of the wasted time
The hours that were left behind
The answers that we'll never find
They don't mean a thing tonight"
"You used to shine so bright But I watched all of it fade"
"I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
just to lie you've got to rise above"
What makes you think everyone wants you?You'll see in the end when you're all alone that you were wrong.-Christina Shumard
So lets close our eyes and makes far-fetched wishes wasting our time,
Candy coated kisses.
Why wish when you could fight for what you want?
Is love not a battlefield?
Get out there in the fight,you're gonna go far kid.-Christina Shumard
-ClassyChristina
"I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
just to lie you've got to rise above"
What makes you think everyone wants you?You'll see in the end when you're all alone that you were wrong.-Christina Shumard
So lets close our eyes and makes far-fetched wishes wasting our time,
Candy coated kisses.
Why wish when you could fight for what you want?
Is love not a battlefield?
Get out there in the fight,you're gonna go far kid.-Christina Shumard
-ClassyChristina
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